you do not understand.

i don't understand why things must be so hard. why people always think according to their mindset, according to what they hear though they know what they hear might not be true, might not be accurate. not everyone is the same. why must people judge others by race? i know it's gonna be tough. i know i have to face a lot of things. what i need the most now is support. for you to tell me to stay strong. to stay tough. to believe. to think positive in things. i've been crying and crying because things are so tough for me. the type of faces i saw when i told them about someone whom is important to me. it is killing to see people you think you could rely on showing faces of disapproval when you tell them about someone you love. you expected smileys, you expected curiosity. you expected excitement. you get none... you get none. i appreciate advises. i appreciate help. but i also appreciate understanding and support. is it too much for me to wish for? how ironic it is to see myself crying for these things again and again. how many disappointments i get and yet, nobody is there to support me. i'm sorry that i cried. and i'm sorry again coz my tears are still flowing. now.